Asking Eric: I think my partner is ready to end our marriage

Dear Eric: Almost 10 years ago, my husband had a life-changing car accident. It left him with neurological issues, some of which still linger to this day.

He was unable to convey to me the depths of his emotional pain and frustrations due to the neurological trauma, and I, rather than showing empathy, became a nagging, frustrated harpy, bombarding him with questions like why he hadn’t unloaded the dishwasher and why he was always sleeping when I got home from work.

Through several honest, heart-to-heart discussions in the past three years, my husband has revealed his (deserved) hurt and disappointment in my treatment of him in the year post-accident. He’s stated that he’s not sure if he could ever forgive me.

I’ve apologized to him countless times for my atrocious behavior and have had to dig deeply to face my own insecurities and inner demons. Although he recognizes that I’m trying to be a better person, he’s stated that “people don’t change” and is wary that I’ll be kinder to him going forward.

My husband has asked that while we sort things out, we continue our daily life of work, family and simple pleasures, and that we both try to not make things awkward between us. He said he wasn’t sure if he loved me, but he will always have love for me. I feel hopeless that he will stay in our marriage. He refuses to seek any counseling but I’m considering going for myself.

Could you please provide another point of view on this situation?

– At A Crossroads

Dear Crossroads: Counseling for yourself is the right next step. It will be helpful to talk with someone outside of your marriage about the hopelessness you’re feeling, as well as the guilt you’ve expressed about your past behavior.

A therapist can also help you forgive yourself for the unintended hurt, which is just as important as your husband’s forgiveness. People do change, but the past doesn’t. Changing our relationship to the past, however, is a powerful tool on the path to healing.

Unfortunately, I don’t think that your husband’s plan is the best course of action. He’s dealing with the trauma from the accident as well as the trauma of feeling neglected by a loved one. That’s a lot to handle and he should avail himself of support. Furthermore, whatever the future holds for your marriage, you’ll need to be able to communicate with each other. It doesn’t sound like that’s fully possible right now. If he’s not willing to go to counseling with you, see if he’ll consider talking to someone on his own.